It all started the night i had my friend over Mattie,You messaged me one face book and said" im in your neighborhood whats your address" i gave it to you.You said "ill be there in a few" You came over and we laughed and joked around it was great.I kept watching you and i was starting to fall for you.I liked you before then but i never thought you would have came to my house or would have ever wanted to hang out with me.We didn't even talk for a week before you asked me out and i said"yes" We were happy for the first two month then we feel apart.It kills me that we didn't work out after everything that i gave up to be with you i thought you would have seen that.All that doesn't matter now though.Your going into the marines next year and you said you didn't want to be with me because you couldn't trust me?After i had told you that i supported you all the way and that we could do it because if we say we loved each other like we did then we could have done it.Your the only person that i ever felt secure with your the one that i wanted to get up and have a good day for.I was happy and you never were.You used me for what you wanted and i did whatever you wanted because i wanted you happy.If i could go back and change everything i would because i do not want anyone but you because i love you! I might still be 16 but Ive never feel for any guy like i have fallen for you.All those times you said "i love you" Was it true?Did you really care? I know that i screwed up somethings and once i saw that i stopped!Right? i stopped a lot of things for you.Because i cared about you and i wanted to stay together.I still don't understand "how your feelings changed"You never really talked to me about anything i had to do all of the talking.I guess the saying "everything happens for a reason"is true.I'm not going back this time.You've hurt me three times and my heart can't take anymore hurt or pain.I love you Jimmy lee land and I'll do anything for you but i can't put myself back in that place. I'd love to try to work things out.Every time i see you now i will most likely cry.But i am going to be strong and keep my head held high.I DON'T WANT ANYONE ELSE RIGHT NOW!!!I don't want another relationship for awhile.You were all i ever wanted and i thought we would last. You broke up with me at a two year old's Birthday party embarrassed ,me in front of everyone.When we finally sat down and talked i cried my eyes out to you and you didn't even care you sat there and watched me you didn't try to comfort me.I don't know what to do anymore but i just want you to know that I'm here for you whenever your ready to talk to me.I LOVE YOU!I'm sorry that i wasn't good enough for you,maybe you'll find someone better.who knows with you.Everything we had is gone now and i will not go back,you always said"you'll do whatever i want you to"But your wrong now I'm tired of being the one who gets hurt and is left standing all alone. i dropped A lot of people friends and family to be with you and now i have very few I'm ALONE and you don't care.Guess it's time to more on and let myself have fun and let myself be known i will not cry over you because i deserve better..You can always be my friend but the relationship is not there.When i started this note i had A LOT on my mind that i was going to write but now that I'm writing i forgot everything.So when i think of more ill come back and write more!Maybe one day we will be able to work things out when we both figure out what we want in life and out of each other.I am in-love with you and hope we can work something out.
We fight,fuss,disagree,laugh,cry,but everything we do we do it together and no matter what happens ill ALWAYS love you.Your the first thing on my mind when i wake up and when i close my eyes at night your the picture i fall asleep to.I hope that everything works out this time,Because this is the last time.I love you and i do not want ...to loose you.Your everything to me and i can honestly say you were the first guy I've ever fallen for like this.Jimmy Land i want you to know that god is here for the both of us and without him we wouldn't have such a powerful bond we wouldn't be together.So thank god for everyday that we are together look to him for our problems never give up because he will never give up on you(: Most of all keep you head held high and remember that no matter what Kristta Michelle Burrell will always have you back and will ALWAYS be here for you through thick and thin.[♥]i love you very much and you better no that by now, but i love you and i know that we can get through the tough times and we will be alright in the long run and we will prove to everyone that they were all wrong. i love you so much!
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